I feel like I have a break down every Friday. I cried after leaving my EE16A lab today. I did not understand a lot of the questions and people just did it so fast. It takes me a while to process information. I feel so behind. After the lab, I just tried to go back the dorm as soon as possible so no one would see me cry. Sometimes, letting things out make me feel better.
Someone told me “Don’t be sad, Lupin”. I am very thankful to their words. But, hey, I am sad because of things happen. I am not sad because I want to neither because someone tells me to. So telling me “don’t be sad” just doesn’t make sense. And it does not make me or others people feel better.
Larry, one of my friend, we do not talk that much, but I send him postcards every time I travel. He wrote to me:
your bad mood is because of ego and feeling sorry for your self. you are awesome, look at everything you have done so far, you have a gerat future but focus on your self. be your self, and do your best